In Canada

When I am asked how the trip went my answer is –good, tough but good. I do not know if I can come up with a different answer. Let me say, I love Nicaragua. It is a beautiful country. A place I call home. There are beautiful and handsome people in it. Many amazing local people working to make a difference in their lives and the lives of others.

There are places in this trip that were incredibly hard. Places in which I never thought would happen. I knew to expect the poverty. I knew to expect to see men, women and children hungry (physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually) and having practically nothing. Yes, of course my heart broke for those things. But it was the other things that have broken me even more. However, they are things that out of respect for the people involved; I cannot speak of or write about. All I can say is please pray for the things that have broken my heart. My heart yearns for justice and chains to be broken.

Transitioning to life in Canada has been a bit of a whirlwind. I returned to Canada and within 12 hours I was heading on another trip for a friend’s wedding. I am very grateful to have gone and the weather was much nicer than where I am from which helped some. I was still cold though (and still am)! The wedding was beautiful and I am very blessed to see a great friend be married to a great guy.

In Nicaragua, sometimes it was hard to remember about your personal needs but within hours of returning to Canada, my heart sank as I realized how I had quickly adjusted to what I needed. Even in Nicaragua I know there were places where I could have been more selfless in my actions. Actually many times, I am embarrassed of my actions.

Yesterday, August 14^th, was a difficult day. I am a pretty happy person with a smile that most people enjoy seeing. However, it was not always like that. I may have had a smile on my face but my thoughts were all negative and beating the crap out of myself and everything I did or did not do. Jesus has done a lot of work in my life and one place was with my thoughts. However, there are times in which my thoughts turn negative.

Yesterday was one of those days.

I questioned whether being in Nicaragua was really worth it. Did I actually make a difference? Did the harmful actions that I had at times just make things worse? The main thought was that this trip was horrible because of the things that broke my heart – the actions of those who were harmful, the injustice that was done as well as the actions that I had that were not pleasing to God.

In the middle of the day, I had to almost slap myself, realizing how I was taking myself down a destructive path. A path in which the devil wanted me to walk down but our cross barring Jesus was not. The amazing thing about our God, so great, is that He covers a multitude of sins. The mistakes I made, the mistakes others made are covered by His grace. As I repented for my destructive thoughts, the thoughts of the things I saw that did make a difference in the lives of others returned.

Yes, not everything was beautiful and amazing but there were some pretty amazing things that happened. Things that I desire to share on my blog over the next little while, though most start with a sad story. Just like a rainbow - you must have the rain (not so good) and the sun (the good).

Where I was living did not have internet for over a month... though we thought it would only be 10 days, it was not. I am sorry for not being able to share while I was there. I hope sharing now will be able to show what your donations and prayers were able to achieve in the last month I was there.

On a personal note, here is an updated photo of me!

Photo taken by the lovely Lorna Rande in Penticton BC (Note - it was about 31 degree Celsius and I was in pants, shoes, tank top, a t-shirt and never left the hotel without a sweater! The lack of humidity in this country is killing me!)

update.. finally!

Hi All,

I´m sorry it has taken so long to update.. I have a few more mintues before I need to leave the internet cafe I am in.. I don´t have interent right now as our internet at home is broken. (it has been down for about 2 weeks ish).

I am doing fine.. I am hot, tired, and have my 4th infection.. Something to do with my taste buds and mouth... I do not speak enough spanish to know what the doctor is saying what it is.. The nice thing is that I just go and talk to the doctor and they write me a prescription all while I am volunteering. It works great!

Right now there are a couple American groups here working around the Chinandega area... we are cooking food, building, serving them as they serve here. The groups leave tomorrow so life will sorta slow down... If you call this life slow! When you live with 12-15 people and everyone is going in different directions it´s hard for it to be slow.

I have been able to catch up on different things for Impact Nations which makes my heart a bit happier.. But now I need the interent to upload the information from my computer! Hopefully by the end of this week the interent will be up.

My Spanish is picking up some but I am still finding it easier to speak English with those who speak english instead of starting with spanish.. Please be praying that I do.. it is frustrating not being able to comunnicate the way I desire to. My heart desires to share my heart and passion with people in Spanish but it is difficult.

Please be praying for good sleep even if it is short and for joy even in the hot and tired places.

Please also be praying for the people who God is calling to come to Nicaragua in July. So far not many have signed up but I believe will provide the right people.

Many blessings!

Posted on Impact Nations website!

Hi Everyone,

I haven´t been able to post very often as it has been very iffy with the internet and it has been very busy here. But I wanted to take this opportunity to share about Nicaragua.

This July we have a journey coming here and I wish to share a little bit about Nicaragua in hopes that you will want to join us!

To start of with... being from Vancouver were it is not very hot.. It is hot here. And yet, it is so beautiful. And yet, it is a hard place to live. Most people here make about a dollar US a day (not all but most).. Most people do not live in a house with four walls that are sealed. It is usually tin, cardboard, scrap wood or plastic. Their floors are dirt and yet this is what they know.

I have been on a 4 missions trips now and Nicaragua is a great first time trip. Yes, you do see hard things... Yes, there might be culture shock.. But if God is tugging on your heart to go - one must go. If He is calling you, He will provide for all of your needs... The nice thing about coming here is that you have ac in your room, the vehicles and there is some serious good food!

I am praying that those who God is calling to go.. Will make that step to say, yes Lord, I will go..

Many blessings to you all

Tomorrow - ONE MONTH

So, tomorrow it will be ONE month since I have been in Nicaragua.. To say it's been a rough start is an understatement.

I arrived and was awake WAY too long which caused me to be exhausted for many days but I attempted to push through it. Though it didn't work too well!

Then the Calgary team came and I was so sick. I was probably bad but when they were around, I attempted to act like I was fine.. I really wasn't. After 8 meds and two weeks, I am doing better. I have lost a lot of weight and to this day it is still difficult to eat a lot so I am still loosing weight now..

It has been around 36 degrees the whole time I have been here. But I have adjusted so much that when the locals are cold, so am I. When they are gross and sweaty.. I'm just more sweaty and gross!

What have I been up to? Well it's been a mix of things... The ministry down here has a medical clinic so I have been working there a couple times a week. I have also been helping out at the feeding centres in the poor areas. We are also running medical clinics in poor areas throughout the area. I have also been to Managua more times than I can count doing errands as well as clinics, meetings with pastors, etc. Tomorrow (Saturday) I believe I am heading to another medical clinic in Tipitapa..

I am also working to get work done for Impact Nations . It has been a little difficult as there is so much going on here that I struggle to pin down the people I need, let alone have someone to take me to do what I need. (Please be praying about this as I desire to honour God and Impact more with this work). There is also a team coming from Impact Nations in August (just after I leave) and I am helping with some of the arrangements.. If you'd like to join them and see where I have been living, and do some sweet serving, please check it out here ... It also looks there there is a team coming from my church in Surrey.. Very exciting!

I have also been having fun.. After church, a group of us usually head to the beach and hang out. But we have also been to a couple other beaches and at one place we even went for a boat ride! My favourite part though is holding babies! People here see a white girl wanting their baby and just pass them up! It's so awesome. On Thursday, I was helping in Limonal with the cooking for the feeding centre and Pastor Carlos has a young nephew and I took him and was working while holding him. His mom was laughing at me but kept helping us work!

Though it has been difficult, I can truly say I have been enjoying being here. It has been good to be here.

Things I never thought I'd see:

*motorcycle with a guy on the back holding his bicycle (it's normal now but the first time.. not)
*a chicken become road kill (animals on the side of the road is very normal here)
*a taxi full of coolers that the back door can't close
*I'm sure there's more I just should have written them down sooner

Prayer Requests:
*I can continue to serve and serve well
*my Spanish will continue to increase and I will be willing to try to speak more.
*I can fulfill both duties (with El Shaddai and Impact Nations) well.
*my health will continue to improve and not get worse
*communication will continue and improve

Thanks for your prayers

Before, between, now

So as you have read.. I have been sick.. I thought I'd show some (HORRIBLE) photos of me...

About a month before I left
Five days in Nicragua

10 minutes ago (06/06/11) ** warning.. Not much clothes on.. sorry***

Indiana

Her name is Indiana... You wouldn't know it now but she was a sexual worker... From my understanding she has 5 children.. Most of whom are also in the business. Through the ministry of El Shaddai, Indiana made the choice to change... Not just for her but for her youngest daughter, Grettel... (spelling may be off!)


One of the first things I did when I arrived was hear about her story.. I did not know it as I thought she was the housekeeper when I arrived. Though there she was at the house to serve the people here and did it ever so joyfully...

One of the first things I was told was that Indiana and Grettel were sleeping in a hammock together because their bed had worn out. I didn't grasp what that meant until later..

I had been told that a lovely lady had donated $100US to buy her and her daughter a bed. So off we went..

Then to her house... Some re-arranging needed to be done...
Yes, this is her house..
With the bed in it... If you look above... there is a hammock.. Those two slept in it for I don't know how long.. I can't imagine...

Indiana and her precious daughter were also blessed by the Calgary team that came as they 'moved' her house and built her a latrine!

This family is a blessing to us here at the house as she saves the day when people are sick and cooks for us! I pray that she will continue to keep strong and grow in her faith and raise her daughter to be a woman of God even in the area they are living.

Josue

My little buddy that I get to see every so often... He is my little Spanish teacher..